Hi y'all, Lately it seems that all I do is apologize for not doing what I want to do. Did I stop running? Like hell I did. I still go out about 3 times a week for a run but getting down to the gutting truth...I have not been taking care of myself the way I should. I want to run, I want to be fit again and I want the title of my blog to be more than just that one...the one. Somehow everybody keeps telling me I should not forget what I've been through and to take it easy, be kind to myself, look at myself with some compassion and it hasn't even been a year and this is profound and I need time. The thing however is I'm not sure this is what I need. For me it feels like I need the cold hard truth because I feel like I'm hiding away from myself, allowing my work-a-holic- self to take over, leaving no room for what matters in life. I'm no shrink but I don't think I'm grieve stricken and mad all the time, if anything I need to just..well...grow a pair So w